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SPEND TIME WITH ME, says the LORD

Sunday, January 6, 2019 @ 10:30 am.

Woke up from my comfy bed this morning and the first thing the Lords says to me is “Spend time with Me”. There was a reply from me, but I chose to leave it out. What I want for you all to do is, is fill in the blank page with your respond to the Lord Jesus, for yourself. Tell HIM your heart and what it is that is troubling you or what it is that you need God to work out on your behalf this very morning/moment for such a time as this.  I know for me, I didn’t have to think very hard before things just came flooding in from all 4 corners of my mind. Sometimes the Lord just wants us to be quiet before HIM and let HIM do all the talking and other times HE just listens to us and hears our heart cries and tells us child it’s going to be alright. Just trust ME to have your back. Just trust ME the one who holds the whole world in the palms of my hands.  Sometimes, HE just wants to hold and cuddle us like we like to be held and cuddled. Sometimes, HE just wants for us to pay attention to HIM and give HIM quality time like we like sometimes. You know my friends it’s not always about the length/quantity of time we spend together with someone that counts but the quality of time well spent with them.

Is our relationship with Father God, Quality time or Quantity time? Do we think if we read a bunch of pages in the bible in the morning or before we go to bed and get a quick prayer in that we are doing something great/grand? Maybe we should think about this a bit longer. How, about in our relationships with others. Do we want to just do, do, do all day and go, go, go all day and at the end wonder what in the world did I even accomplish but to keep busy and never accomplish really anything but say I was with this person or that person and they should just be happy about it.

I’m starting to rethink a few things and areas of my life, by hearing this, statement/question come from the LORD the other day.  AM, I spending the time with HIM that HE desires or that I desire to give to HIM? This brings up another good thought. I was just talking with someone the other day on the phone.  This person asked me why that they had to always call me. I thought very quickly and my response back was because I thought that is how you wanted it, because you are always so busy.  Then the person said I wasn’t trying to make you feel bad. I brought this up because sometimes in life we allow ourselves to be so, so busy that we haven’t the time to do this friendship/relationship the right way.  Sometimes we keep doing what we think is right without asking the other person how that it is making them feel. We start taking advantage without sometimes even recognising what were doing. In the process we end up hurting the ones we say that we love and adore.  I think that is what God is trying to get across to me this morning back on the 6th of January.  People and friends, look how much God loves you and I.  He has taken the time to commune with me, to tell me His heart while I was still laying on my comfy bed all cozy just waiting/listening to hear the voice of my Father, before I put my feet to the floor to start my busy day.

How does this have anything to do with anything, someone might ask.  I really can’t give you a answer other than what I say makes sense to me.  I know that when I sit back in my chair and have a book in my hand to read or if I’m just sitting and thinking about life with a drink of something in my hand.  I start to wander off in my mind to a place of loneliness maybe or maybe to a happy place when I’ve had all of my children and family around at the same time. Or maybe a time when I was praying for someone and I saw the Lord heal and restore them to health by and through the HOLY SPIRIT. We can take authority over what we think by allowing our minds to go to those places.  We  need to be consciously aware at all times that the enemy is real, and would just love for us to go on a warpath down the wrong avenue of our minds.  We can direct where we decide where to launch our thoughts and where we lay down to rest them.  Life is a journey and I’m liking this journey more and more everyday that I take the responsibility for my actions and of my consequences for them. God promises to be with us always and that I’m very thankful for, trust me.   This is something to ponder on and I would like to challenge each of you to challenge yourselves as well.  This is way more than I expected to say but I feel that the Lord guided me here to share more of what I’m about. I’m no better than anyone here reading this blog. I’m just thankful that God chose to use me to help someone, if only one, blessings and shalom. Love you all very much.

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My Old Life Ends – My New Life Begins

Invitation

I just would like to give an open invitation to anyone who is looking for a home church. You might try The Rock Assembly of God in Oklahoma City, OK. If you are having any kind of problems in your life where you feel there is no way out, you feel like there isn’t any hope or life left .You’re feeling like your bones/ flesh have dried up. Where you’ve tried everything you possibly thought you could do on your own efforts, without any relief or results.

My Testimony

I’ve been there. Heard a very heartfelt message one day last Dec/Jan. Where are pastor Darrell Sanderlin was preaching about how there are many people in the church today just living on their past memories and warming the pews, to put their time in for the week. I began to ponder this and said wouldn’t that be nice, to be able to have memories to fall back onto. But, sad to say that wasn’t me. I had been through so much in my 52 years of life that I felt so hopeless, tired from everything life had thrown my way and at the times I just didn’t have another ounce of fight left in me. I contemplated things now that I’m not proud to admit but through God’s grace, God’s love and mercy. He brought people from right inside my church family to finally listen and take the time to pray with me.

At first I refused the help because I felt they didn’t mean it they were just trying to blow me off like everyone else had done. I found out that God was actually doing a new thing in our church body and that I could trust and allow myself to open up and give it another shot. They started talking with me like I was somebody special and worth their time. This has not ever happened to me in this way before. People have tried to make attempts but I never felt them to be the real deal, so I would shut down. I don’t blame anyone or hold any resentment or bitterness towards anyone that knows me from there, or any church that I’ve attended over the years, that brought me to this place in my life. I wasn’t the same person that I am today by a long shot. I tried to stay as far away from people that I could so they wouldn’t get to know me so that I wouldn’t have to speak. Yes there were times that I would open up and share but felt that I wasn’t special enough or strong enough to hold a conversation worth having with anyone. I know this was just the enemy trying to keep me bound by his chains and shackles of bondage and legalism but I really believed I had nothing valuable to share that anybody would want to hear.

The reason for sharing this today is to not draw attention to myself but to the One Man who changed everything for me and to me. His name is, JESUS CHRIST the SON of GOD. He came to my bedroom one night/morning and answered my life long prayer and when I surrender my life totally 100% . After, I had asked my husband a very important question. What is wrong with me. His response was , what I perceive God to be telling me throughout our almost 34 years together, is this…I believe that you are a Kinetic Learner. It was like a light bulb went off in my head and then it all made sense. I wasn’t crazy, I wasn’t stupid, I wasn’t losing my mind. At that moment, with much prayer, fasting and trusting/obedience. I felt the power of the Holy Spirit all over me and also felt the hand of GOD slap me right in my frontal lobe of my forehead. It was like fire resting and burning all at the same time. It didn’t hurt like pain where you want to take medicine for. It was totally different. I knew what God was doing because He told me. Since that visit in my bed, back in Jan/Feb I haven’t been the same. I am forever changed by God’s love and mercy. I know a man named Jesus Christ who can and meet each and everyone of these life threatening issues, that I have listed and posted. I could list more, but I feel you get the point at least for now.

God’s Desire

God wants all of His people Jew and Gentile to be one as He and His Father in heaven are one. God doesn’t want there to be division in His body of believers. God’s heart is breaking for His children to come into relationship with Him and to start becoming more involved in the part of wooing after Him . God loves it when His children woo after Him and draw nigh unto Him and seek/humble themselves in worship and adoration before the very throne room of God. God loves it when we focus all of our attention on him who created the Heavens and the Earth .

In the beginning of Genesis, God himself spoke the very world as we see it into existence and each and every word is the very life and breath of Yeshua/Jesus himself. Yeshua/Jesus is the living breathing Word of God. The Word says, ”if you have seen me you have seen my Father which is in Heaven , because I came from Him.” Jesus said, “ I AM the living bread sent down from Heaven. Drink of Me and I will make you never thirst again.” What an amazing Heavenly Father we have that loves us this much. God, wants and desires to give us all good gifts from above. God’s desire and heart is that all His children ask and seek Him for all His gifts of the Spirit and the Fruit of the Spirit too. God says to seek all his gifts for they are ALL good and come from above. There is still so much that has been left out, but I trust you will all see my heart and what I am trying to share with each one of you today.

My Change of Heart

I never in a million years ever wanted to be a pastor’s wife and I had told my sweetheart from the very beginning even before we made Covenant with each other with the giving of rings to show our love for one another. I also made him promise to allow me to have 10 children. Why 10 just thought that was a good number that I could keep track of my both my hands, lol Well if you include my grandchildren I’m almost there. We have 4 beautiful children and 5 beautiful grandchildren as of today. So I still have 3 children who haven’t blessed us with any yet but life is just beginning and I’m still believe that there isn’t anything too difficult for my Great Big GOD to do.

Our Goodbye Today

Today, while at the Rock Assembly of God, our Pastor Darrell Sanderlin allowed us to speak to the congregation for a short brief moment to tell them what God was doing and calling us into. My husband, Chris Verschage shared how God has called us to go to Israel and because of that we were gonna be leaving the church but wanted to do it the right way. We wanted to tell everyone how much they meant to us and to our family. Being part of the Rock for little over 10 years is big for us. We hadn’t been anywhere this long ever in our marriage. We are leaving because we perceive to know and understand that God has called us to go to Israel to tell His people and the Nations of the World that He Loves them and hasn’t changed His mind about the Commandments/Torah. Also God wants for us to tell them that He is coming back for His bride who will be spotless and blemish free. One who seeks after Righteousness as well as Holiness. He created you and I so He isn’t finished working in us either. Remember it’s not how we start that matters, but how we finish our RACE that counts. Yes both are important but the latter one means everything.

My Question

Who is with me and wants to hear our Father in Heaven say, well done my good and faithful servants come into the presence of my Father and rule and reign Forever and Ever, Amen.

 

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