My Old Life Ends – My New Life Begins


I just would like to give an open invitation to anyone who is looking for a home church. You might try The Rock Assembly of God in Oklahoma City, OK. If you are having any kind of problems in your life where you feel there is no way out, you feel like there isn’t any hope or life left .You’re feeling like your bones/ flesh have dried up. Where you’ve tried everything you possibly thought you could do on your own efforts, without any relief or results.

My Testimony

I’ve been there. Heard a very heartfelt message one day last Dec/Jan. Where are pastor Darrell Sanderlin was preaching about how there are many people in the church today just living on their past memories and warming the pews, to put their time in for the week. I began to ponder this and said wouldn’t that be nice, to be able to have memories to fall back onto. But, sad to say that wasn’t me. I had been through so much in my 52 years of life that I felt so hopeless, tired from everything life had thrown my way and at the times I just didn’t have another ounce of fight left in me. I contemplated things now that I’m not proud to admit but through God’s grace, God’s love and mercy. He brought people from right inside my church family to finally listen and take the time to pray with me.

At first I refused the help because I felt they didn’t mean it they were just trying to blow me off like everyone else had done. I found out that God was actually doing a new thing in our church body and that I could trust and allow myself to open up and give it another shot. They started talking with me like I was somebody special and worth their time. This has not ever happened to me in this way before. People have tried to make attempts but I never felt them to be the real deal, so I would shut down. I don’t blame anyone or hold any resentment or bitterness towards anyone that knows me from there, or any church that I’ve attended over the years, that brought me to this place in my life. I wasn’t the same person that I am today by a long shot. I tried to stay as far away from people that I could so they wouldn’t get to know me so that I wouldn’t have to speak. Yes there were times that I would open up and share but felt that I wasn’t special enough or strong enough to hold a conversation worth having with anyone. I know this was just the enemy trying to keep me bound by his chains and shackles of bondage and legalism but I really believed I had nothing valuable to share that anybody would want to hear.

The reason for sharing this today is to not draw attention to myself but to the One Man who changed everything for me and to me. His name is, JESUS CHRIST the SON of GOD. He came to my bedroom one night/morning and answered my life long prayer and when I surrender my life totally 100% . After, I had asked my husband a very important question. What is wrong with me. His response was , what I perceive God to be telling me throughout our almost 34 years together, is this…I believe that you are a Kinetic Learner. It was like a light bulb went off in my head and then it all made sense. I wasn’t crazy, I wasn’t stupid, I wasn’t losing my mind. At that moment, with much prayer, fasting and trusting/obedience. I felt the power of the Holy Spirit all over me and also felt the hand of GOD slap me right in my frontal lobe of my forehead. It was like fire resting and burning all at the same time. It didn’t hurt like pain where you want to take medicine for. It was totally different. I knew what God was doing because He told me. Since that visit in my bed, back in Jan/Feb I haven’t been the same. I am forever changed by God’s love and mercy. I know a man named Jesus Christ who can and meet each and everyone of these life threatening issues, that I have listed and posted. I could list more, but I feel you get the point at least for now.

God’s Desire

God wants all of His people Jew and Gentile to be one as He and His Father in heaven are one. God doesn’t want there to be division in His body of believers. God’s heart is breaking for His children to come into relationship with Him and to start becoming more involved in the part of wooing after Him . God loves it when His children woo after Him and draw nigh unto Him and seek/humble themselves in worship and adoration before the very throne room of God. God loves it when we focus all of our attention on him who created the Heavens and the Earth .

In the beginning of Genesis, God himself spoke the very world as we see it into existence and each and every word is the very life and breath of Yeshua/Jesus himself. Yeshua/Jesus is the living breathing Word of God. The Word says, ”if you have seen me you have seen my Father which is in Heaven , because I came from Him.” Jesus said, “ I AM the living bread sent down from Heaven. Drink of Me and I will make you never thirst again.” What an amazing Heavenly Father we have that loves us this much. God, wants and desires to give us all good gifts from above. God’s desire and heart is that all His children ask and seek Him for all His gifts of the Spirit and the Fruit of the Spirit too. God says to seek all his gifts for they are ALL good and come from above. There is still so much that has been left out, but I trust you will all see my heart and what I am trying to share with each one of you today.

My Change of Heart

I never in a million years ever wanted to be a pastor’s wife and I had told my sweetheart from the very beginning even before we made Covenant with each other with the giving of rings to show our love for one another. I also made him promise to allow me to have 10 children. Why 10 just thought that was a good number that I could keep track of my both my hands, lol Well if you include my grandchildren I’m almost there. We have 4 beautiful children and 5 beautiful grandchildren as of today. So I still have 3 children who haven’t blessed us with any yet but life is just beginning and I’m still believe that there isn’t anything too difficult for my Great Big GOD to do.

Our Goodbye Today

Today, while at the Rock Assembly of God, our Pastor Darrell Sanderlin allowed us to speak to the congregation for a short brief moment to tell them what God was doing and calling us into. My husband, Chris Verschage shared how God has called us to go to Israel and because of that we were gonna be leaving the church but wanted to do it the right way. We wanted to tell everyone how much they meant to us and to our family. Being part of the Rock for little over 10 years is big for us. We hadn’t been anywhere this long ever in our marriage. We are leaving because we perceive to know and understand that God has called us to go to Israel to tell His people and the Nations of the World that He Loves them and hasn’t changed His mind about the Commandments/Torah. Also God wants for us to tell them that He is coming back for His bride who will be spotless and blemish free. One who seeks after Righteousness as well as Holiness. He created you and I so He isn’t finished working in us either. Remember it’s not how we start that matters, but how we finish our RACE that counts. Yes both are important but the latter one means everything.

My Question

Who is with me and wants to hear our Father in Heaven say, well done my good and faithful servants come into the presence of my Father and rule and reign Forever and Ever, Amen.


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